i feel crushed. apparently during ma working days i used to think alot while im standing.
day dreaming would be the word. now out of the blue i feel deeply crushed.
in a split second.
im 6 feet under
in a corner
i prayed silently
but its useless.
im dead.
whats end is about to start...
im sad so sad. what makes me feel this way is my insecurities. im sad so sad why im in doubt. im in fear, because anything impossible is possible! his friends are my friends, kud be the ones that he had a crush on, kissed or more =/ yeh they kud prolly already got over it, but it does suck to be the last person to know right? it sucked that if im the person who doesnt know. TRUST MOTHERFUCKER TRUST!
is it safe for some things not to be told? are u sure? am i sure? how about love, my other part of heart fits to his and vice versa, but it will be cracked. i demand to know some other side of point of view!
i demand to know! i want to know! i need to know!.. this.. this DIY hole of mine is getting bigger and if he has a sixth sense it would trigger him to read and open this blog.
