Things are not going so well. But it is alright, i'll just cry infront of my screen.. like as if its the usual thing. The screen, writing has always been there like a shoulder for me to cry on.
Hi ya babe, i cannot reaach you again, i guess u are sad that u have to sit for the Malay test.
i did say i am sorry, and i promised i help... but then again i don't think u'll believe me anymore.
it hurts to know that i can only blog this feelings and tears, call me emotional. but i do not like to share to anyone, and even when i want to share it with you, you wont be happy either. you must've feel that the world is behind your back when i stress you out.
when u completely shutdown or unhappy, i just want you to know that il be unhappy as well, naturally..
i wished you would remember time to time, that you're reaction affects me. but it looks u simply ignore that. ili sayangkan bebeh, i too do not know how to express myself. but i repeatitively tried to tell.
at times i feel like suicide, *this is just an expression*, slice myself, just so mark all this frustration that i am not making u happy. gosh babe, i wish u know how much u mean to me.. u're perfect to me. it seems i met my match.. i know u can afford to live without me with the pain and everything cos u are spiritually strong.
sigh.. i guess the both of us arent ready to be together 10 years from now... cos i phail.
